Multiple times in a day I ask this question to others and get asked as well. I sit on my desk and get a ping from someone, “Hi Pallavi, how are you?”
My brain starts overworking and several responses play one by one in my head.
My conscious self asks, “Do you really care or is this just a greeting?”
My heart whispers, “I don’t even know; how do I tell you?”
Then there is my mind which finally responds, “Hey, yourself. I am fine, How about you?”
What is it about this question that makes me feel so confused about the answer. It looks simple enough on the surface but even if I ask it to myself, I am unable to answer it. Are we all living in a mirage of reality, just passing one day at a time and then when we are asked one real question, we stumble, fumble and are ready to crumble . Today I will try to answer it.
“Hey Pallavi, how are you?”
“Honestly, I am a lost and found department inside. I keep trying to search for something, it’s just that I don’t know what I am searching for. I am a bundle of emotions all day long. I am sighs, laughs and tears. I thought growing old would come with answers, but I feel I don’t even know the questions now.”
How are you? Only real answers, please.